day 57: blergh

i'm stressed today. because:

a) last night, i fell asleep after my last blog update (around 7:30pm) and didn't wake up until 5am. i still have a headache. i feel like this is a glasses issue.

b) i'm feeling a little bit broke from rowing and other things, and last night i found out my bike is a piece of crap. surprise surprise! i should probably invest in a new one. maybe i'll ride this one out for the season and buy a new one next year? it's squealy, one of the brakes on the front wheel is picky, and the bike people did all they could for free. i feel like i need to buy a bike from them...they're friends of the guy at the first place, but they rebuild their bikes from scratch. anyway, don't exactly have the money for it at the moment...but also don't want to stop riding.

c) work.

d) that nausea thing. that's concerning.

e) did i mention the glasses thing? i used to have reading glasses when this happened before, and i had to get them because i had 20/20 but weak eyes, which means they get tired. how pathetic.

f) i have to eat a lot to make up for not eating at all yesterday evening.

but you know what? i'm putting on a happy face, or trying to. i discovered gojee.com which has gotten me through the periods of my brain feeling like it's going to break today. go check it out! it's the coolest thing ever. you can put in what ingredients you have around the house and what you want and it will spit out recipes that use some/all of them and include stuff you're craving. perfection. especially when i'm feeling broke.

and i'm going to go for a run when i get home, and it's going to be lovely.

sleep
9.5 hours

food
omlette: 275c, 16f, 14p, 20b, 0s
two pieces toast: 140c, 2f, 6p, 22b, 4s
fried rice: 450c, 24f, 26.5p, 41b, 2s
chips: 140c, 7f, 2p, 18b, 0s
tomato pie (a lot of tomato pie): 1298.5c, 47.25f, 45.5p, 127b, ?s
1c chocolate milk: 150c, 2.5fa, 9p, 25b, 22s
1c strawberries: 50c, 0f, 1p, 12b, 7s

= 2500c, 95f, 104p, 265b, 35s

34% fat, 17% protein, 42% carbs, 6% sugar

....not awful?

exercise
i coxed during rowing and thus did not burn real calories.

running: 45 minutes, 6 of them at high intensity.

the heart rate zone thing is still tricky, and it's making me run much slower (for now), but i'm confident that it will be a good thing for me in the long run (no pun intended).


net goal: 3,840c
net: 1,973c
tomorrow's net goal (still making up for a few days ago): 3,667c

grateful
for a new perspective on what success is.