so i've been exercising, at least yesterday i did. i ran over five miles, but i also only ate one meal because...i forgot. so i ate a lot of snacks at a party and it was fine. but my laziness is becoming extreme.
it's now 1:13. i've been awake, on and off, for four hours. i'm starving and really thirsty. have i done anything to address this? of course not.
my goals for the day: go on a run and a long bike ride. eat more than one meal.
sounds simple enough, right?
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okay. so i went on a run, but it was about half the distance i wanted to go. i guess i was tired, worn out from my run on saturday and probably dehydrated.
i didn't go on a bike ride.
my net calorie intake was still probably 1,200 or so, not of healthy things but at least i ate, and what running i did was at a really great pace. so, inch by inch. i need to find that garmin thing that reads information off my HRM!
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
day 20: back on my running little feet
that's a misleading title. i have the feet of a clown. with big feet.
so i'm 99% sure i had a mild case of food poisoning from something i ate for lunch on monday. it lasted a few days, and even today i had the remnants of a bad stomachache. oh well.
this morning, i somehow finally dragged myself out of bed to do yoga. i couldn't believe how tight my muscles were after a week and a half of not doing it. i'm thinking about waking up for yoga tomorrow. i usually don't do it two days in a row, but this morning was so enlightening that it just might be time.
after work, i went for a quick four-mile run. my stomach killed afterward and i couldn't stop coughing (i'm actually wondering if i have a cold-induced asthma thing, remembering running in the cold last year), but i made it. and, as always, i felt much better after i went.
on my way back again, after yet another set-back. the important thing is that i get back in, right?
food
breakfast
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
lunch
kashmir spinach and brown rice: 280c, 10p, 6f
snack
plum: 30c, 0p, 1f
apple: 95c, 0p, 4f
dinner
shakshuka: 485c, 22p, 9f
=1258c, 52p, 23.5
exercise
i can't find the little thingy that plugs into my computer to upload info from my HRM right now, so:
yoga - 50c
running 4.2 miles - 500c
=550c
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/708
2) net protein: 93/52
3) net fiber: 25/23.5
so i'm 99% sure i had a mild case of food poisoning from something i ate for lunch on monday. it lasted a few days, and even today i had the remnants of a bad stomachache. oh well.
this morning, i somehow finally dragged myself out of bed to do yoga. i couldn't believe how tight my muscles were after a week and a half of not doing it. i'm thinking about waking up for yoga tomorrow. i usually don't do it two days in a row, but this morning was so enlightening that it just might be time.
after work, i went for a quick four-mile run. my stomach killed afterward and i couldn't stop coughing (i'm actually wondering if i have a cold-induced asthma thing, remembering running in the cold last year), but i made it. and, as always, i felt much better after i went.
on my way back again, after yet another set-back. the important thing is that i get back in, right?
food
breakfast
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
lunch
kashmir spinach and brown rice: 280c, 10p, 6f
snack
plum: 30c, 0p, 1f
apple: 95c, 0p, 4f
dinner
shakshuka: 485c, 22p, 9f
=1258c, 52p, 23.5
exercise
i can't find the little thingy that plugs into my computer to upload info from my HRM right now, so:
yoga - 50c
running 4.2 miles - 500c
=550c
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/708
2) net protein: 93/52
3) net fiber: 25/23.5
Monday, October 24, 2011
day 17: ugh!
bad day. came home to run and ran about ten minutes before i had a stomach cramp the size of my entire body. OW. and no idea why....i was well hydrated, i hadn't eaten in awhile but wasn't starving...there are a lot side cramps one can overcome, and this was not one of them.
i am annoyed.
and still feeling generally awful. i wonder if i'm going to make it to hip hop tonight. so much for a really fun, healthy monday.
(obviously grumpy.)
i am annoyed.
and still feeling generally awful. i wonder if i'm going to make it to hip hop tonight. so much for a really fun, healthy monday.
(obviously grumpy.)
Saturday, October 22, 2011
day 15: collarbones continued
i'll explain the collarbones thing when i'm feeling inspired. promise.
ran over seven miles for the first time since the injury tonight. it felt amazing. oh, and i did all of my laundry.and made wheat english muffins that actually have the texture of bread. win.
it was nice to have a day to myself. because of MEA, there wasn't opera today. and while i missed my kids a lot (true story), it was great to sleep in and get some things done. and then to actually pretend to be a human and run really far. that part especially.
food
breakfast
pasta and beans: 360c, 16p, 14.75f
snack
ice cream and coffee: 200c, 5p, 0f
wheat english muffin: 198c, 7p, 3.5f
2 tsp butter: 60c, 0p, 0f
lunch
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
dinner
mac and cheese: 600c, 20p, 0f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/
2) net protein: 93/
3) net fiber: 25/
ran over seven miles for the first time since the injury tonight. it felt amazing. oh, and i did all of my laundry.and made wheat english muffins that actually have the texture of bread. win.
it was nice to have a day to myself. because of MEA, there wasn't opera today. and while i missed my kids a lot (true story), it was great to sleep in and get some things done. and then to actually pretend to be a human and run really far. that part especially.
food
breakfast
pasta and beans: 360c, 16p, 14.75f
snack
ice cream and coffee: 200c, 5p, 0f
wheat english muffin: 198c, 7p, 3.5f
2 tsp butter: 60c, 0p, 0f
lunch
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
dinner
mac and cheese: 600c, 20p, 0f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/
2) net protein: 93/
3) net fiber: 25/
Thursday, October 20, 2011
day 15: time to run
yesterday, it really was time to sleep.
the previous three nights, i got...what. four hours of sleep, five max? i forgot what it feels like to be constantly exhausted, and that's nothing in comparison to how i lived in college and high school.
so last night i got home, once again took the night off of exercise (i know, bad ana) and fell asleep at 6:30. i slept until about 1:30 (am), woke up for about an hour and went back to sleep until 7:15. bam.
tonight, i'm running. my body is starting to scream to run a little bit, which i always kind of love because it confirms the intense psychological addiction to running with a physical one. is it okay to like being addicted to something healthy? at this level, probably.
but yeah. i still feel like garbage. this week has been really fun, though. for that i'm extremely grateful.
food
breakfast
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
lunch
mi hoanh thanh: 450c, 30p, 0f
snack
peach: 70c, 2p, 3f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/
2) net protein: 93/
3) net fiber: 25/
the previous three nights, i got...what. four hours of sleep, five max? i forgot what it feels like to be constantly exhausted, and that's nothing in comparison to how i lived in college and high school.
so last night i got home, once again took the night off of exercise (i know, bad ana) and fell asleep at 6:30. i slept until about 1:30 (am), woke up for about an hour and went back to sleep until 7:15. bam.
tonight, i'm running. my body is starting to scream to run a little bit, which i always kind of love because it confirms the intense psychological addiction to running with a physical one. is it okay to like being addicted to something healthy? at this level, probably.
but yeah. i still feel like garbage. this week has been really fun, though. for that i'm extremely grateful.
food
breakfast
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
lunch
mi hoanh thanh: 450c, 30p, 0f
snack
peach: 70c, 2p, 3f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/
2) net protein: 93/
3) net fiber: 25/
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
day 14: time to sleep
food
breakfast
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
snack
soy latte: 160c, 5p, 0f
lunch
pasta and beans: 360c, 16p, 14.75f
snack
apple: 95c, 0p, 4f
plum: 75c, 0p, 1f
dinner
squash soup: 255c, 4p, 5.5f
6 gruyere croutons: 376c, 14.5p, 4.5f
=1689c, 59.5p, 33.5f
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1689
2) net protein: 93/59.5
3) net fiber: 25/33.5
breakfast
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
snack
soy latte: 160c, 5p, 0f
lunch
pasta and beans: 360c, 16p, 14.75f
snack
apple: 95c, 0p, 4f
plum: 75c, 0p, 1f
dinner
squash soup: 255c, 4p, 5.5f
6 gruyere croutons: 376c, 14.5p, 4.5f
=1689c, 59.5p, 33.5f
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1689
2) net protein: 93/59.5
3) net fiber: 25/33.5
day 13: collarbones
today was a good reminder of all that i have to be grateful for. sometimes when i'm having trouble motivating myself to work out, i remind myself what an awesome thing it is that our bodies are able to perform miracles. we can train our bodies to run unreasonable amounts of miles, lift things heavier than we are, move in ways that they never could in ordinary life...and it's pretty sweet.
of course, i didn't exercise today. but hey! i'm really sore and emily has a friend from south africa in town. so i had stuff to do. tomorrow's another day.
food
breakfast
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
lunch
pasta and beans: 360c, 16p, 14.75f
snack
fatty yogurt: 280c, 6p, 0f
grapes: 60c, 0.5p, 1f
apple: 95c, 0p, 4f
dinner
veggie pot pie: 400c, 15p, 9f
salad: 100c, 0p, 0f
dessert
half piece banana bread: 122c, 1.5p, 0.5f
snack
cheese, raisins, various snacky stuff: 250c, 5p, 2f
cocktail: 175c, 0p, 0f
most of these are estimates because i was exhausted when i wrote this all out. still am...so i overestimated a lot. still, the numbers are too high.
=2,210c, 64p, 34.75f
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/2210
2) net protein: 93/64
3) net fiber: 25/34.75
one thing i'm trying to figure out: what do i do on days when i don't exercise? do i eat 1,500 calories? do i eat 2,000 like i normally do even though i'm not burning it off?
no one's sure.
okay, back to work...
of course, i didn't exercise today. but hey! i'm really sore and emily has a friend from south africa in town. so i had stuff to do. tomorrow's another day.
food
breakfast
egg sandwich: 368c, 20p, 3.5f
lunch
pasta and beans: 360c, 16p, 14.75f
snack
fatty yogurt: 280c, 6p, 0f
grapes: 60c, 0.5p, 1f
apple: 95c, 0p, 4f
dinner
veggie pot pie: 400c, 15p, 9f
salad: 100c, 0p, 0f
dessert
half piece banana bread: 122c, 1.5p, 0.5f
snack
cheese, raisins, various snacky stuff: 250c, 5p, 2f
cocktail: 175c, 0p, 0f
most of these are estimates because i was exhausted when i wrote this all out. still am...so i overestimated a lot. still, the numbers are too high.
=2,210c, 64p, 34.75f
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/2210
2) net protein: 93/64
3) net fiber: 25/34.75
one thing i'm trying to figure out: what do i do on days when i don't exercise? do i eat 1,500 calories? do i eat 2,000 like i normally do even though i'm not burning it off?
no one's sure.
okay, back to work...
Monday, October 17, 2011
day 12: hip hop
yep, that's right. i'm in a hip hop class with julia. we dance on mondays, and we can skip when we need to, and it's $12 and it's a great $12 to spend. because it was really fun and i burned almost as many calories dancing as i did running today.
food
breakfast
homemade english muffin (wheat): 198c, 7p, 3.5f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
1 oz cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
snack
pear: 100c, 1p, 6f
lunch
squash soup: 255c, 4p, 5.5f
3 gruyere croutons: 188c, 7.25p, 2.25f
snack
2/3 fatty yogurt: 187c, 4p, 0f
1c grapes: 60c, 0.5p, 1f
dinner
squash soup: 255c, 4p, 5.5f
3 gruyere croutons: 188c, 7.25p, 2.25f
snack
large apple: 115c, 1p, 5f
dessert
banana bread: 244c, 3p, 1.5f
banana bread: 244c, 3p, 1.5f
second ineedtoeatmorebecausemycaloriecountislow dinner
bean pasta: 360c, 16p, 14.75f
=2564c, 71p, 48.75f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1444
2) net protein: 93/71
3) net fiber: 25/48.75
food
breakfast
homemade english muffin (wheat): 198c, 7p, 3.5f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
1 oz cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
snack
pear: 100c, 1p, 6f
lunch
squash soup: 255c, 4p, 5.5f
3 gruyere croutons: 188c, 7.25p, 2.25f
snack
2/3 fatty yogurt: 187c, 4p, 0f
1c grapes: 60c, 0.5p, 1f
dinner
squash soup: 255c, 4p, 5.5f
3 gruyere croutons: 188c, 7.25p, 2.25f
snack
large apple: 115c, 1p, 5f
dessert
banana bread: 244c, 3p, 1.5f
banana bread: 244c, 3p, 1.5f
second ineedtoeatmorebecausemycaloriecountislow dinner
bean pasta: 360c, 16p, 14.75f
=2564c, 71p, 48.75f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1444
2) net protein: 93/71
3) net fiber: 25/48.75
Sunday, October 16, 2011
day 11: a lazy weekend
i don't know if it's the sickness or the stress or the cold or what, but i've been exhausted all weekend. i've exercised about zero, haven't eaten very well and have slept at all the wrong times.
it's alright, though. i'm doing laundry, made my shopping list for the week and i'm drinking water in preparation for a run that will take place somewhere along the way.
i'll write a real post at some point. after the yawning stops.
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things that make me feel human again:
1) talking to/spending time with close friends and family
2) running
3) cooking/baking
4) being hydrated
i went on a pretty awesome run, considering the month i couldn't run and that i've only been running again for two weeks. yes, i'm slow, but i'm getting my distance back. i need to be careful not to push it too much, though. that could result in another injury.
anyway, my ipod shuffled me into happiness again, i felt the endorphins kick in and once i hit my stride, there was no stopping me.
exercise
it's alright, though. i'm doing laundry, made my shopping list for the week and i'm drinking water in preparation for a run that will take place somewhere along the way.
i'll write a real post at some point. after the yawning stops.
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things that make me feel human again:
1) talking to/spending time with close friends and family
2) running
3) cooking/baking
4) being hydrated
i went on a pretty awesome run, considering the month i couldn't run and that i've only been running again for two weeks. yes, i'm slow, but i'm getting my distance back. i need to be careful not to push it too much, though. that could result in another injury.
anyway, my ipod shuffled me into happiness again, i felt the endorphins kick in and once i hit my stride, there was no stopping me.
exercise
Saturday, October 15, 2011
day 10: saturdays
every saturday during the school year, i wake up around 7, get to the opera center by 8 and stay until 2. this makes eating a challenge, and many weeks i don't eat until after opera. mostly because my psyche can only handle doing food prep for five days (monday-friday) and additional preparation seems overwhelming.
this morning, i did alright. i grabbed a banana and some soup and got coffee on my way in, which isn't actually nutrition but is unreasonably delicious. if you haven't noticed, i've been on a latte kick this week. it's not something i'm planning on giving up soon.
yesterday, i didn't exercise at all. i let myself sleep in a little bit instead of doing yoga after the thursday from hell. (by the way, i bought a bunch of clothes on thursday for various things and bought a size 4 dress! sure, it's stretchy so it doesn't really count, but still. i'll take it.) i didn't eat very well, didn't eat dinner and once again partied myself to sleep. sometimes this is completely necessary.
i'll update later. i have a wedding to go to tonight of someone i don't know...but maybe it'll be fun? my fortune cookie yesterday seems to think so.
this morning, i did alright. i grabbed a banana and some soup and got coffee on my way in, which isn't actually nutrition but is unreasonably delicious. if you haven't noticed, i've been on a latte kick this week. it's not something i'm planning on giving up soon.
yesterday, i didn't exercise at all. i let myself sleep in a little bit instead of doing yoga after the thursday from hell. (by the way, i bought a bunch of clothes on thursday for various things and bought a size 4 dress! sure, it's stretchy so it doesn't really count, but still. i'll take it.) i didn't eat very well, didn't eat dinner and once again partied myself to sleep. sometimes this is completely necessary.
i'll update later. i have a wedding to go to tonight of someone i don't know...but maybe it'll be fun? my fortune cookie yesterday seems to think so.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
day 8: small victories
during periods of intense stress, i usually stop eating. if the stress continues, this phase lasts for about two weeks. then, i start eating and soon i'm gorging myself on horrendous amounts of food. this is what's happened over the last month. and today i'm contemplating not eating dinner. it's 9:19pm. i don't want this cycle to start over again.
it's funny how much our bodies are affected by stress. my back hurts, despite all of the yoga, my stomach is churning even though there isn't any real imminent danger, my throat is tight and i can't release the tension in my neck and shoulders.
and though i know that i should probably go for a run tonight to release some of the stress, the other side effect that lasts all the way through the stressful months is incredible fatigue. which, somehow, doesn't actually allow me to fall asleep.
exercise usually keeps this cycle at bay, as do decent eating habits. but sometimes there's only so much you can do before life kicks you in the face.
so, to kick it back, i'm trying to practice some serious gratitude, to be thankful for all of the wonderful things that are constants and are happening in my life right now, to be grateful for the opportunities i have to change these stressful situations and to look forward to my future state of extreme happiness which, i'm sure, will come along soon.
until then, i'm going to try to not stop eating or to eat too much. and i will do the exercise thing just as soon as i am able. practicing patience with myself. that's another thing.
food
breakfast
1 oz turkey: 25c, 5p, 0f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 55c, 3.5p, 0f
homemade english muffin (breadmaker's apprentice recipe): 214c, 9p, 1.5f
snack
soy latte: 274c, 7p, 4f
lunch
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
snack
small banana: 90c, 1p, 3f
big apple: 115c, 1p, 5f
dinner
homemade chicken noodle: 315c, 33p, 3f
2 crackers: 45c, 1p, 0.5f
= 1613c, 93.5p, 20f
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1613
2) net protein: 93/93.5
3) net fiber: 25/20
it's funny how much our bodies are affected by stress. my back hurts, despite all of the yoga, my stomach is churning even though there isn't any real imminent danger, my throat is tight and i can't release the tension in my neck and shoulders.
and though i know that i should probably go for a run tonight to release some of the stress, the other side effect that lasts all the way through the stressful months is incredible fatigue. which, somehow, doesn't actually allow me to fall asleep.
exercise usually keeps this cycle at bay, as do decent eating habits. but sometimes there's only so much you can do before life kicks you in the face.
so, to kick it back, i'm trying to practice some serious gratitude, to be thankful for all of the wonderful things that are constants and are happening in my life right now, to be grateful for the opportunities i have to change these stressful situations and to look forward to my future state of extreme happiness which, i'm sure, will come along soon.
until then, i'm going to try to not stop eating or to eat too much. and i will do the exercise thing just as soon as i am able. practicing patience with myself. that's another thing.
food
breakfast
1 oz turkey: 25c, 5p, 0f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 55c, 3.5p, 0f
homemade english muffin (breadmaker's apprentice recipe): 214c, 9p, 1.5f
snack
soy latte: 274c, 7p, 4f
lunch
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
snack
small banana: 90c, 1p, 3f
big apple: 115c, 1p, 5f
dinner
homemade chicken noodle: 315c, 33p, 3f
2 crackers: 45c, 1p, 0.5f
= 1613c, 93.5p, 20f
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1613
2) net protein: 93/93.5
3) net fiber: 25/20
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
day 7: still alive
i woke up this morning with a horrendous headache. i drank some water, did yoga, went back to bed for a little while, and woke up with an even worse one. took some tension headache, treated myself to a latte, and got to work. sometimes this is a small miracle. sometimes a big one.
i'm already way over budget on my calories for the day, but i think that's an okay reversal, since in normally don't eat that many calories until dinner, which is a bad practice.
i'll update throughout the day...
okay, no. this was an awful eating day. damn you stress and poor planning.
the upside is that even after i was at work until almost 7, even after emily and i made english muffins and ate dinner at 9pm etc etc etc, i still managed to go on a run. and it was, as usual, what i needed.
also: happy birthday, mom!
food
breakfast
zucchini/carrot bread: 320c, 16p, 1f
1 tsp butter: 30c, 0p, 0f
soy latte: 330c, 12p, 2f
snack
1/2 a piece of birthday pie: 305c, 4p, 0fCompose
lunch
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
snack
apple: 100c, 0p, 4f
yogurt: 130c, 7p, 0f
small banana: 90c, 1p, 3f
dinner
1/2 sourdough roll: 150c, 5p, 1.5f
2 oz cheese: 225c, 14p, 0f
squash soup: 250c, 7p, 8f
homemade english muffin (breadmaker's apprentice recipe): 214c, 9p, 1.5f
2 tsp butter: 65c, 0p, 0f
dessert
sorbet bar: 70c, 0p, 0f
=2699c,102p, 25f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1991
2) net protein: 93/103
3) net fiber: 25/25
this could've been a much better day, or a much worse one.
i'm already way over budget on my calories for the day, but i think that's an okay reversal, since in normally don't eat that many calories until dinner, which is a bad practice.
i'll update throughout the day...
okay, no. this was an awful eating day. damn you stress and poor planning.
the upside is that even after i was at work until almost 7, even after emily and i made english muffins and ate dinner at 9pm etc etc etc, i still managed to go on a run. and it was, as usual, what i needed.
also: happy birthday, mom!
food
breakfast
zucchini/carrot bread: 320c, 16p, 1f
1 tsp butter: 30c, 0p, 0f
soy latte: 330c, 12p, 2f
snack
1/2 a piece of birthday pie: 305c, 4p, 0fCompose
lunch
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
snack
apple: 100c, 0p, 4f
yogurt: 130c, 7p, 0f
small banana: 90c, 1p, 3f
dinner
1/2 sourdough roll: 150c, 5p, 1.5f
2 oz cheese: 225c, 14p, 0f
squash soup: 250c, 7p, 8f
homemade english muffin (breadmaker's apprentice recipe): 214c, 9p, 1.5f
2 tsp butter: 65c, 0p, 0f
dessert
sorbet bar: 70c, 0p, 0f
=2699c,102p, 25f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1991
2) net protein: 93/103
3) net fiber: 25/25
this could've been a much better day, or a much worse one.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
day 6: two halves down, two to go
signed a lease today. the apartment hell is almost over.
other things seem to be settling slowly, but today i'm once again overwhelmed. after work, rachel and i went to see one more place before signing our lease, and when i got home i felt like i'd gotten hit by a truck. just absolutely physically exhausted and tired and achy. but i made myself go for a run, even after i had to come back in to charge my ipod, and i'm glad i did.
on nights like these, running is sort of like praying. it's not just that it's meditative, that your body hits a rhythm and starts to propel you forward. it's also that somehow things start to make sense in your brain, or at least in mine.
i get these daily emails called "meditations" and last week, one of them went like this:
"prayer is sitting in the silence until it silences us, choosing gratitude until we are grateful, and praising god until we ourselves are an act of praise."
i've never had a traditional view of what constitutes prayer, but i think it necessarily must include our bodies. this is an entirely different blog post, probably.
running makes me feel powerful not only because it's amazing that our bodies are capable of carrying us miles and miles, but because our brains can travel miles, too. and when my feet are hitting the pavement, somehow nothing seems that insurmountable.
this is why i go pretty insane when i can't run, and why i always come back to it.
oh, and the moon was beautiful.
food
breakfast
1 egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
1 corn tortilla: 52c, 1p, 1.5f
1/2c salsa: 35c, 2p, 2f
lunch
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
snack
apple: 100c, 0p, 4f
yogurt: 130c, 7p, 0f
dinner
chicken noodle soup: 315c, 33p, 3f
snack
8 crackers: 180c, 4p, 2f
1 oz cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
dessert
5 Trefoils: 160c, 2p, 0f
1c skim milk: 80c, 8p, 0f
=1750c, 94p, 15.5f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1283
2) net protein: 93/94
3) net fiber: 25/15.5
other things seem to be settling slowly, but today i'm once again overwhelmed. after work, rachel and i went to see one more place before signing our lease, and when i got home i felt like i'd gotten hit by a truck. just absolutely physically exhausted and tired and achy. but i made myself go for a run, even after i had to come back in to charge my ipod, and i'm glad i did.
on nights like these, running is sort of like praying. it's not just that it's meditative, that your body hits a rhythm and starts to propel you forward. it's also that somehow things start to make sense in your brain, or at least in mine.
i get these daily emails called "meditations" and last week, one of them went like this:
"prayer is sitting in the silence until it silences us, choosing gratitude until we are grateful, and praising god until we ourselves are an act of praise."
i've never had a traditional view of what constitutes prayer, but i think it necessarily must include our bodies. this is an entirely different blog post, probably.
running makes me feel powerful not only because it's amazing that our bodies are capable of carrying us miles and miles, but because our brains can travel miles, too. and when my feet are hitting the pavement, somehow nothing seems that insurmountable.
this is why i go pretty insane when i can't run, and why i always come back to it.
oh, and the moon was beautiful.
food
breakfast
1 egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
1 corn tortilla: 52c, 1p, 1.5f
1/2c salsa: 35c, 2p, 2f
lunch
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
snack
apple: 100c, 0p, 4f
yogurt: 130c, 7p, 0f
dinner
chicken noodle soup: 315c, 33p, 3f
snack
8 crackers: 180c, 4p, 2f
1 oz cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
dessert
5 Trefoils: 160c, 2p, 0f
1c skim milk: 80c, 8p, 0f
=1750c, 94p, 15.5f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1283
2) net protein: 93/94
3) net fiber: 25/15.5
Monday, October 10, 2011
day 5: salty soup
so i almost ruined my crock pot chicken noodle soup by not adding enough salt this morning and adding too much when i got home...but i added some more water and i'm hoping that after it sits overnight it'll get over it. we'll see.
also i compulsively decided to take a hip hop (dance) class with julia. we're gonna start next monday or the monday after that. i'm pretty pumped. i know, it's hilarious, me and hip hop. but so was me and rowing, right?
i should've run today but somehow messed up my schedule and couldn't have gone until late...by which time iw as tired and unmotivated. but tomorrow's a new day.
food
breakfast
1 egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
1 corn tortilla: 52c, 1p, 1.5f
1/2c salsa: 35c, 2p, 2f
lunch
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
snack
apple: 100c, 0p, 4f
carrots: 60c, 0.5p, 3f
2 tbsp annie's ranch: 120c, 1p, 0f
4 crackers: 90c, 2p, 1f
1 oz cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
dinner
chicken noodle soup: 315c, 33p, 3f
snack
zucchini bread w/chocolate chips: 320c, 6p, 3f
= 1790c, 92.5p, 20.5f
exercise
once again, i totally messed this up and this is probably half of my workout. but whatever.
i'm gonna round up to 120 since that's what happened last time i did this workout...
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1670
2) net protein: 93/92.5
3) net fiber: 25/20.5
also i compulsively decided to take a hip hop (dance) class with julia. we're gonna start next monday or the monday after that. i'm pretty pumped. i know, it's hilarious, me and hip hop. but so was me and rowing, right?
i should've run today but somehow messed up my schedule and couldn't have gone until late...by which time iw as tired and unmotivated. but tomorrow's a new day.
food
breakfast
1 egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
1 corn tortilla: 52c, 1p, 1.5f
1/2c salsa: 35c, 2p, 2f
lunch
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
snack
apple: 100c, 0p, 4f
carrots: 60c, 0.5p, 3f
2 tbsp annie's ranch: 120c, 1p, 0f
4 crackers: 90c, 2p, 1f
1 oz cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
dinner
chicken noodle soup: 315c, 33p, 3f
snack
zucchini bread w/chocolate chips: 320c, 6p, 3f
= 1790c, 92.5p, 20.5f
exercise
once again, i totally messed this up and this is probably half of my workout. but whatever.
i'm gonna round up to 120 since that's what happened last time i did this workout...
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1670
2) net protein: 93/92.5
3) net fiber: 25/20.5
Sunday, October 9, 2011
day 4: why i love the shuffle setting on my ipod
went for a run this morning with emlar. it was an absolutely breath-taking morning and i'm so glad she pulled me out of bed to run this early. and by early i mean 10:30. which is not actually really early.
i had a great playlist from my ipod, which went like this:
love and happiness - al green
slide - goo goo dolls
troubled - land of talk
hallelujah - jeff buckley
light of love - music go music
dee - javelin
dawning - tamaryn
float on - modest mouse
teardrop (cover) - jose gonzalez
if she wants me - belle and sebastian
you know when it starts out with al green that it's gonna be so good. sooo good.
i'm still frustrated with how out of shape i feel. i mean, of course i do. i've barely been able to run over the last month. but it never ceases to surprise me how much of a difference a few weeks make. luckily, it seems that my muscles remember what it's like to be really strong. so they'll get there. and so will i.
food
breakfast
english muffin: 130c, 6p, 4f
soy turkey: 50c, 7.5p, 1f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 55c, 3.5p, 0f
mango chutney: 35c, 0p, 0f
1 egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
1 corn tortilla: 52c, 1p, 1.5f
1/2c salsa: 35c, 2p, 2f
= 585c, 33p, 8.5f
snack
chocolate milk: 135c, 8p, 0f
apple: 95c, 0p, 4f
dinner
1 cup butternut squash with some oil: 135c, 1.5p, 6f
1 cup sauteed veggies: 60c, 0.5p, 3f
1/2c black beans: 140c, 7p, 6f
1/2c salsa: 35c, 2p, 2f
1 wheat tortilla: 90c, 3p, 2.5f
1 corn tortilla: 50c, 1p, 1.5f
1 glass red wine: 150c, 0p, 0f
stewed apples: 150c, 0p, 5f
3/4c ice cream: 200c, 4.5p, 0f
that equals 1825c, 60.5p, 32f. i just made some tuna casserole for lunch for the week so i guess i'll eat some of that, too, to balance it all out.
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
= 2245c, 87.5p, 35f
exercise
also, i biked around for awhile, then to emily's, then home. i'm gonna put that at 200.
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1535
2) net protein: 93/87.5
3) net fiber: 25/35
i had a great playlist from my ipod, which went like this:
love and happiness - al green
slide - goo goo dolls
troubled - land of talk
hallelujah - jeff buckley
light of love - music go music
dee - javelin
dawning - tamaryn
float on - modest mouse
teardrop (cover) - jose gonzalez
if she wants me - belle and sebastian
you know when it starts out with al green that it's gonna be so good. sooo good.
i'm still frustrated with how out of shape i feel. i mean, of course i do. i've barely been able to run over the last month. but it never ceases to surprise me how much of a difference a few weeks make. luckily, it seems that my muscles remember what it's like to be really strong. so they'll get there. and so will i.
food
breakfast
english muffin: 130c, 6p, 4f
soy turkey: 50c, 7.5p, 1f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 55c, 3.5p, 0f
mango chutney: 35c, 0p, 0f
1 egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
1 corn tortilla: 52c, 1p, 1.5f
1/2c salsa: 35c, 2p, 2f
= 585c, 33p, 8.5f
snack
chocolate milk: 135c, 8p, 0f
apple: 95c, 0p, 4f
dinner
1 cup butternut squash with some oil: 135c, 1.5p, 6f
1 cup sauteed veggies: 60c, 0.5p, 3f
1/2c black beans: 140c, 7p, 6f
1/2c salsa: 35c, 2p, 2f
1 wheat tortilla: 90c, 3p, 2.5f
1 corn tortilla: 50c, 1p, 1.5f
1 glass red wine: 150c, 0p, 0f
stewed apples: 150c, 0p, 5f
3/4c ice cream: 200c, 4.5p, 0f
that equals 1825c, 60.5p, 32f. i just made some tuna casserole for lunch for the week so i guess i'll eat some of that, too, to balance it all out.
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f
= 2245c, 87.5p, 35f
exercise
also, i biked around for awhile, then to emily's, then home. i'm gonna put that at 200.
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1535
2) net protein: 93/87.5
3) net fiber: 25/35
Saturday, October 8, 2011
day 3: best friends
the rest of yesterday was...a disaster. i mean, not entirely. but i ate too much, drank too much and didn't get a lot of sleep. it was fun, though! so i guess that's good.
today i'm really tired and the multiple life crises are kind of punching me in the face repeatedly. and this is a good reminder of why i'm doing this, why i'm trying to take good care of myself, because when i don't it wrecks my mood and my outlook.
luckily, i have these amazing friends who sat through lunch with me and made me laugh, gave me persepective and reminded me that i'm standing on solid ground. it's just that the wind is blowing really, really hard.
food
breakfast/lunch
chicken hash: 225c, 18p, 3f
2 poached eggs: 140c, 6p, 0f
dinner
mac and cheese. yep. the kind from a box. in shapes: 580c, 20p, 2f
1 cup romaine: 10c, 1p, 1f
1 cup grapes: 100c, 1p, 1f
1 stalk celery: 5c, 0p, 1f
2 tbsp blue cheese: 70c, 4p, 0f
2 oz turkey: 50c, 10p, 0f
1 tbsp oil: 110c, 0p, 0f
1 tbsp walnuts: 50c, 1p, 0f
4 wheat crackers: 90c, 2p, 1f
1 tbsp blue cheese: 35c, 4p, 0f
= 1465c, 67p, 9f
exercise
i messed up tracking this like 80 times. i probably did about 35-40 minutes of yoga and burned more calories than that, but whatever...
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1345
2) net protein: 93/67
3) net fiber: 25/9
today i'm really tired and the multiple life crises are kind of punching me in the face repeatedly. and this is a good reminder of why i'm doing this, why i'm trying to take good care of myself, because when i don't it wrecks my mood and my outlook.
luckily, i have these amazing friends who sat through lunch with me and made me laugh, gave me persepective and reminded me that i'm standing on solid ground. it's just that the wind is blowing really, really hard.
food
breakfast/lunch
chicken hash: 225c, 18p, 3f
2 poached eggs: 140c, 6p, 0f
dinner
mac and cheese. yep. the kind from a box. in shapes: 580c, 20p, 2f
1 cup romaine: 10c, 1p, 1f
1 cup grapes: 100c, 1p, 1f
1 stalk celery: 5c, 0p, 1f
2 tbsp blue cheese: 70c, 4p, 0f
2 oz turkey: 50c, 10p, 0f
1 tbsp oil: 110c, 0p, 0f
1 tbsp walnuts: 50c, 1p, 0f
4 wheat crackers: 90c, 2p, 1f
1 tbsp blue cheese: 35c, 4p, 0f
= 1465c, 67p, 9f
exercise
i messed up tracking this like 80 times. i probably did about 35-40 minutes of yoga and burned more calories than that, but whatever...
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1345
2) net protein: 93/67
3) net fiber: 25/9
Friday, October 7, 2011
day 2: beautiful day off
i took the day off today and i can't tell you how gorgeous it is outside. i spent the morning reading by the window in the kitchen with an amazing cup of coffee, went to my voice lesson which was great despite my sore throat, went for a run followed by a nice walk, saw a beautiful apartment that is soon to be ours if we choose to take it and talked to my far-away best friend who i get to see tomorrow.
i should take fridays off more often...
food
breakfast
english muffin: 130c, 6p, 4f
soy turkey: 50c, 7.5p, 1f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 55c, 3.5p, 0f
mango chutney: 35c, 0p, 0f
lunch
1 cup romaine: 10c, 1p, 1f
1 cup grapes: 100c, 1p, 1f
1 stalk celery: 5c, 0p, 1f
1 tbsp blue cheese: 35c, 2p, 0f
2 oz turkey: 50c, 10p, 0f
1 tbsp oil: 110c, 0p, 0f
=640c, 37p, 8f
exercise
i should take fridays off more often...
food
breakfast
english muffin: 130c, 6p, 4f
soy turkey: 50c, 7.5p, 1f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 55c, 3.5p, 0f
mango chutney: 35c, 0p, 0f
lunch
1 cup romaine: 10c, 1p, 1f
1 cup grapes: 100c, 1p, 1f
1 stalk celery: 5c, 0p, 1f
1 tbsp blue cheese: 35c, 2p, 0f
2 oz turkey: 50c, 10p, 0f
1 tbsp oil: 110c, 0p, 0f
=640c, 37p, 8f
exercise
Thursday, October 6, 2011
day 1: sputter start
i'm having a lot of trouble with this motivation thing. life is still pretty much a whirlwind, although there are some signs of settling, and my energy's been pretty low for the last month and a half, plus the whole pulled muscle thing. bummer.
despite that, i got out of bed this morning at 5:45 and did yoga. i ate pretty well today (although yes, i did eat some food and drink a beer at happy hour but it was my coworker's send-off party what was i supposed to do) and i feel pretty good. little by little. like my mom says, i'm trying to take it hour by hour, day by day.
food
breakfast
english muffin: 130c, 6p, 4f
soy turkey: 50c, 7.5p, 1f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 55c, 3.5p, 0f
mango chutney: 35c, 0p, 0f
snack
banana: 120c, 1p, 4f
lunch
1 cup romaine: 10c, 1p, 1f
1 cup grapes: 100c, 1p, 1f
1 stalk celery: 5c, 0p, 1f
1 tbsp blue cheese: 35c, 2p, 0f
2 oz turkey: 50c, 10p, 0f
1 tbsp oil: 110c, 0p, 0f
snack
1 Dove chocolate: 40c, 0p, 0f
1 mini pack M&M's: 70c, 1p, 0f
1 small piece thin crust pizza: 140c, 6p, 0f
2 onion rings: 50c, 1p, 0f
1 mozzarella stick: 100c, 4.5p, 0.5f
1/2 cup nachos: 150c, 8p, 2f
1 beer: 150c, 0p, 0f
2 pears: 190c, 1p, 10f
dinner
1c brown rice: 215c, 5p, 4f
1/2c thai pork stew: 205c, 14.5p, 2f
=2030c, 73p, 30.5f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1570
2) net protein: 93/73
3) net fiber: 25/30.5
...not bad for the first day back.
despite that, i got out of bed this morning at 5:45 and did yoga. i ate pretty well today (although yes, i did eat some food and drink a beer at happy hour but it was my coworker's send-off party what was i supposed to do) and i feel pretty good. little by little. like my mom says, i'm trying to take it hour by hour, day by day.
food
breakfast
english muffin: 130c, 6p, 4f
soy turkey: 50c, 7.5p, 1f
egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 55c, 3.5p, 0f
mango chutney: 35c, 0p, 0f
snack
banana: 120c, 1p, 4f
lunch
1 cup romaine: 10c, 1p, 1f
1 cup grapes: 100c, 1p, 1f
1 stalk celery: 5c, 0p, 1f
1 tbsp blue cheese: 35c, 2p, 0f
2 oz turkey: 50c, 10p, 0f
1 tbsp oil: 110c, 0p, 0f
snack
1 Dove chocolate: 40c, 0p, 0f
1 mini pack M&M's: 70c, 1p, 0f
1 small piece thin crust pizza: 140c, 6p, 0f
2 onion rings: 50c, 1p, 0f
1 mozzarella stick: 100c, 4.5p, 0.5f
1/2 cup nachos: 150c, 8p, 2f
1 beer: 150c, 0p, 0f
2 pears: 190c, 1p, 10f
dinner
1c brown rice: 215c, 5p, 4f
1/2c thai pork stew: 205c, 14.5p, 2f
=2030c, 73p, 30.5f
exercise
goals/actuals
1) net calories: 1500/1570
2) net protein: 93/73
3) net fiber: 25/30.5
...not bad for the first day back.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
day 0: still later
...still sick. and today was pretty gross. but tomorrow, right? i always think that we make the right decisions when we're ready to.
i keep singing songs from susannah and trying to boost my motivation. bought headphones today. i'll test out the pulled muscle again tomorrow. actually tomorrow. it's happening.
thanks for your support. hoping the craziness ends soon so i can land on my feet and thank you all properly.
i keep singing songs from susannah and trying to boost my motivation. bought headphones today. i'll test out the pulled muscle again tomorrow. actually tomorrow. it's happening.
thanks for your support. hoping the craziness ends soon so i can land on my feet and thank you all properly.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
day 0: starting over a little later
sorry for the postponing. i woke up pretty sick this morning so my plans have changed a little. but mark my words: this will be up soon. and very soon.
Monday, October 3, 2011
day 0: starting over
well, it's been awhile.
i can't really comment this publicly on a lot of things going on right now, but suffice it to say that things are an absolute whirlwind. just when i was more on my feet than i've ever been, things changed completely.
oh, and i pulled a muscle in my groin. by running. which prevents me from running.
so i'm starting over.
tomorrow morning, a run, only a little longer than my muscle starts to ache again. tomorrow night, yoga. and in between, some healthy food.
tonight, though, i'm going to think about my commitment and crawl back under the covers. i don't know what i would be doing right now without my friends. for them i'm so, so grateful.
i can't really comment this publicly on a lot of things going on right now, but suffice it to say that things are an absolute whirlwind. just when i was more on my feet than i've ever been, things changed completely.
oh, and i pulled a muscle in my groin. by running. which prevents me from running.
so i'm starting over.
tomorrow morning, a run, only a little longer than my muscle starts to ache again. tomorrow night, yoga. and in between, some healthy food.
tonight, though, i'm going to think about my commitment and crawl back under the covers. i don't know what i would be doing right now without my friends. for them i'm so, so grateful.
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