day 6: two halves down, two to go

signed a lease today. the apartment hell is almost over.

other things seem to be settling slowly, but today i'm once again overwhelmed. after work, rachel and i went to see one more place before signing our lease, and when i got home i felt like i'd gotten hit by a truck. just absolutely physically exhausted and tired and achy. but i made myself go for a run, even after i had to come back in to charge my ipod, and i'm glad i did.

on nights like these, running is sort of like praying. it's not just that it's meditative, that your body hits a rhythm and starts to propel you forward. it's also that somehow things start to make sense in your brain, or at least in mine.

i get these daily emails called "meditations" and last week, one of them went like this:

"prayer is sitting in the silence until it silences us, choosing gratitude until we are grateful, and praising god until we ourselves are an act of praise."

i've never had a traditional view of what constitutes prayer, but i think it necessarily must include our bodies. this is an entirely different blog post, probably.

running makes me feel powerful not only because it's amazing that our bodies are capable of carrying us miles and miles, but because our brains can travel miles, too. and when my feet are hitting the pavement, somehow nothing seems that insurmountable.

this is why i go pretty insane when i can't run, and why i always come back to it.

oh, and the moon was beautiful.

food

breakfast
1 egg: 60c, 6p, 0f
2 tbsp cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f
1 corn tortilla: 52c, 1p, 1.5f
1/2c salsa: 35c, 2p, 2f

lunch
tuna casserole: 420c, 27p, 3f

snack
apple: 100c, 0p, 4f
yogurt: 130c, 7p, 0f

dinner
chicken noodle soup: 315c, 33p, 3f

snack
8 crackers: 180c, 4p, 2f
1 oz cheese: 110c, 7p, 0f

 dessert
5 Trefoils: 160c, 2p, 0f
1c skim milk: 80c, 8p, 0f

=1750c, 94p, 15.5f

exercise

 

goals/actuals

1) net calories: 1500/1283
2) net protein: 93/94
3) net fiber: 25/15.5