as you've probably all guessed, this has been/continues to be a rough week. the good news is that i read an article this morning on the rumpus that was so heartbreakingly beautiful that it somehow made me feel connected and capable of getting past the next few days and weeks. thanks, perfectly crafted and folded words.
it probably also helped that i biked to work this morning, although a section of the greenway is closed, which meant it took me about twenty minutes to start on my way (it turns out that the "detour" leads you to a dead-end and you have to navigate through 18 parking lots to get to the next greenway entrance). but i didn't turn back.
egluck and i have rowing again tonight. hopefully no broken bones this time! it's our last practice before we go out on the water. i'm looking forward to the meditative state it puts me in. emily says she counts when she's sequencing her moves (legs, abs, arms, arms, abs, legs), and i made up a little song (music major?) to sequence mine. it focuses your mind just enough to get it away from all of the things that are going wrong, and allows you to just let it go.
sometimes i wonder what hell my life would be if i hadn't found endurance sports. seriously.
my roomie rachel had a fantastic idea for my blog: posting i'm something grateful for each day. i'm actually going to ramp it up and put things i'm grateful for at the end of each post, one for each time i edit them, log in etc. soo get ready for that.
----(later)
so, rowing went late, and then the CHAIN FELL OFF MY BIKE again (dammit), so EGluck graciously drove back to where i was (she'd just left) and took me home. argh! i didn't get home until almost 10 and i've been cleaning since. i still haven't eaten dinner and i was feeling too nauseated today to eat all of the food that i had at work (hence no yogurt), my back hurts and there's still more cleaning, plus i need to somehow pull this dinner together (it's on the stove, but is taking tooo lonnggg). i also think i'm going to have to do a grocery run and get some chocolate milk because i'm not going to meet my calorie needs for the day unless i eat until 3am. (i need like, 2100 more calories. aghh.)
but it's okay, because there are still things that i'm grateful for (see the list at the bottom).
for one thing, turns out rowing is wonderful. we haven't even been out on the water yet! since our class has a bootcamp component, we start each session with sprints, random stretches and other exercise challenges. on our first day, it was a 2k on the ergs (stationary rowing machine) and today it was burpees. if you don't know what they are, don't ever find out. those of us who knew when our coach said we were going to do them groaned. juuust groaned. but whatever. emily and i did beautifully.
then, we learned how to pick up the boat, carry it to the dock, put it in the water, get in, take it out, wipe it down and put it away. that sounds pretty simple but it's actually horrendously complicated because, after all, this is rowing. but we did well and the other girls in our class are hilarious and good-humored so it was actually fun.
i can't wait for saturday! we're going out on the river from the U, finally getting in the boat, not just carrying it. and poor emily is out of town for a wedding, so i'm going to have to row twice as much to make up for her absence. i'm not really worried about it... ;)
i have to admit, though, that i am a little bitter and angry at myself for not running today and not running enough lately. i think i need to really step up my game and make running my priority. if one thing in my day has to go, it should be biking, not running. i love both, but i'm training for a 10k. do i want to die in the middle of it? no. do i want to kick some serious runners butt? why, yes. yes i do.
food
1c blueberry/cranberry juice: 70c, 0p, 0f
huevos rancheros with a corn tortilla: 274c, 10p, 7f
sausage and fava bean pasta: 488c, 27.4p, 6f
two sticks string cheese: 160c, 16p, 0f
1c spicy v8: 50c, 2p, 2f
2 servings chicken and mushroom pasta: 900c, 45p, 4f (slightly different recipe)
2 meringues with strawberries and marscapone: 422, 6p, 5f
total: 2364c, 106.4p, 24f
exercise
an 80-minute bike ride to work, bpm 127: 645c
120 minutes of biking to rowing, bootcamp at rowing and a few other exercises, bpm 123: 1,055c
total: 1,700c
that's absurd!! for some reason i'm thinking that heart rate calories burned are more accurate than other calories. it takes more into account: your sex, your VO2 max as well as your weight, then takes the average bpm and calculates calories. maybe i was burning more earlier on than i thought i was and that's why my body went into semi-starvation mode? i'm certainly not gaining weight now...
net: 664. which means i'm going to have to eat an additional 900 calories tomorrow. sigh.
things that are awesome
going across the wabasha bridge downhill at 23+ mph on my bike
learning all the intense rowing lingo
making friends with other rowers and our coaches/coxswain (yep, that's a real thing)
strawberries. just strawberries
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